A kind of epiphany

Today I came across a speech that made me think, and cry. I have always been ashamed of my extreme sensitiveness, I though I was extremely weak, and that was what people made me believe I was. However, not so long ago a person who has become a closer friend told me that it is an unique and most beautiful characteristic of my personality (not with this words, of course) since I am empathic with most people, I am able to sense and feel more, and I do not analyze, just feel. But...believe me, this sounded jut like shit to me. This was a great information but... I did not make me feel any better about my sensitiveness... until this little epiphany that I have today. It was produced by a single video. Yes, just a video with a speech (see bottom of this entry to see it). About shame, vulnerability, about the sense of belonging, the feeling of not being enough: smart enough, beautiful enough, good enough... and as an extension about love. I have a lot of fears I am aware now, fear of now being able to find a job which suits me better, fear to let the thesis unfinished, fear this new relationship just crumbles without possible solution, fear of loosing my friends sinceI don not have enough time for them... But again, if we do not fight if we believe ourselves not enough...not smart enough to finish my thesis while I work, not brave enough to do not let distance fall apart relationships, not good enough to have a better job in the future (this might take some time)...then of course I will not be able to do it, to do anything. We must be aware of our vulnerability and be able to embrace it, enjoy it for a while, let us be seen just as we are, enough. It may not mean so much for you as it meant for me, but is worth sharing. Here is the speech: Brene Brown: The power of vulnerability | Video on TED.com